Monday, October 10, 2016

we're all mad here.

It's something I've been meaning to write about for a long time and seeing as it's World Mental Health Day, I took it as a sign to get it done.
If you're reading this, you're probably here because the title related to you or someone you know in some way. And I hope there's some information or advice to take from my own experience that can help you or a friend.
And if you have read this post or this post, you will know that I suffer from high anxiety and that I'm not one to stay quiet about it. Anxiety is a major pain in the ass to be honest and sometimes all I want to do is bang my head off a wall to try get rid of the thoughts whirling around inside.
I've always been a worrier and I've suffered from anxiety for about ten years but it's only this year that I'm beginning to fully understand what it's all about.

For the past three or four years, I've been dealing mainly with health anxiety - I frequently have irrational thoughts, I've spent hours and hours obsessing over my own health and I could probably go on a very fancy holiday with the amount of money I've spent on visits to the doctor.
So after recommendations from both a friend and my doctor, I started CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) this year and I'm now at the stage where I have one or two more sessions left.

CBT is based all around the fact that how we think influences how we feel and how we behave. 
There's been weeks where I thought I was getting more anxious and hadn't progressed one bit and there were other weeks where I felt like I was one step closer to getting rid of my anxiety forever. One week after a session, I sat in my car and cried out of relief because I finally felt free in my mind again. This feeling didn't last too long though because unfortunately, it's a "work in progress" kinda thing.

For now, I've accepted that I live with anxiety, that I can manage it and that one day, I'll leave it behind. I'm not afraid of it anymore, I believe in it's power to exaggerate things and I've finally realised that I can take control of it with my own thoughts and actions if I give myself the chance.
The tools I have picked up from CBT have been like magic some days and other days, when those tools don't seem strong enough to beat the anxiety, I say fuck it, ride that wave and try to stay preoccupied.
Long term anxiety is something you have to work at. And it's not easy work.
It sucks. It's tiring. It's even boring sometimes.
But if you suffer from anxiety, then you are a strong person. It's something I need to tell myself a lot to help myself overcome bouts of anxiety. But writing this now, imagining that I'm talking to someone else suffering from anxiety, it just makes complete sense. You are not a weak person if you've been dealing with anxiety. Or depression for that matter.
Self belief is often linked to anxiety and it's very easy to see the relationship when anxiety can be described as overestimating the danger and underestimating your own ability to cope.
You and I are stronger than we think.

"You’re mad, bonkers, completely off your head. But I’ll tell you a secret. All the best people are."

 Cathy x

Monday, October 3, 2016

halloween inspired bar cart.

It's October! At last, I can get excited about Hallowe'en without too much judgement, besides the fact that I am 31 years of age and the commercial side of it is really just aimed at children. But I'm never one to be too mature about things and I don't think that will change any time soon! 
You may have seen my bar cart styled three ways post during the summer so I thought, because it's October and all, I'd do a Hallowe'en inspired bar cart with a few styling tips along the way. 

 Of course, you could tone down the spooky vibes and have a more "grown up" autumnal bar cart or, even better, crank that sh*t up with some fake webs, spiders, skulls and jars of eyeballs.

Oh, what do you serve from this Hallowe'en bar cart? If you're not drinking red wine, it better be a Bloody Mary. Here's my favourite recipe from a few months back. 

Cathy x

Thursday, September 1, 2016

orange & grey.

 It could be the autumn vibes creeping into my brain already or the fact that neon/bright orange and grey just go really well together anyway but I'm a bit obsessed with this colour combination lately. Whether it's decor, fashion or just images, I'm all over it! 

Images via Pinterest
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Cathy x

Thursday, August 25, 2016

all the cool kids.

Sometimes I struggle to find things for Nancy's room that are not overly floral or pink. I like floral and I like pink but it's often overdone in a girl's bedroom so I nearly always steer clear of pastels, frills and the like. Especially when the bedroom is filled with too much Frozen merchandise!

Here's a few affordable bits for kids' bedrooms that I've been bookmarking over the past few weeks...

all from The Kid Who

the kids' section in H&M

adorable handmade shop

notonthehighstreet never fails

Cathy x

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

a walk in the woods.

 "Let's take our hearts for a walk in the woods and listen to the magic whispers of old trees."

Cathy x 

Monday, August 1, 2016

say yes to the dress.

At the moment I have a handful of dresses over at my Etsy store that have me heartbroken. Of course, I'm a fan of everything in the shop because I picked it out myself but these dresses are colourful, flattering and a little bit different which ticks all the right boxes for me. Alas, it wouldn't really be a business if I kept them for myself so take a look at some of these heartbreakers and if you purchase, please love them as dearly as I do! 

Cathy x

Thursday, July 14, 2016

little nancy vintage.

This little one has inspired me to do a lot of things since she arrived into our lives and I'm sure this won't be the last. 
The Turquoise Flamingo shop hasn't really felt complete as long as Little Nancy has been around but at last there's a kids' vintage section and things feel just right!
I'll be adding more items soon but take a look and let me know what you think.

Cathy x 

banana bread with chocolate & hazelnuts.

When life hands you black bananas...make banana bread! This recipe was inspired by the black bananas in our fruit bowl, surplus of eggs in the fridge and the need for something sweet after dinner. Taken from a few recipes online and adding in hazelnuts, leaving out baking powder (not a fan of the taste!) and changing the type of flour, here's my recipe...

 banana bread with chocolate & hazelnuts
2 cups self-raising flour
1/2 teaspoon cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 1/2 cups sugar
2 eggs
1/2 cup oil
butter, for greasing
3 very ripe banana, mashed
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/2 cup chocolate chips
1/2 chopped hazelnuts

Preheat the oven to 180 degrees and grease the sides of a loaf tin and line with parchment paper. In a bowl sift together the flour cinnamon and salt. In another bowl, beat the eggs and sugar until light and fluffy. Pour in oil and keep stirring. Beat in mashed banana and vanilla extract. Fold in the flour mixture, the chocolate chips and most of the nuts and pour into loaf tin. Sprinkle remainder of nuts on top and bake in the oven for 50-60 minutes. 

Cathy x